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11:36pm 01/06/2007
 
mood: irritated
life isn't where i wanted to be right now. it's going. going in such wrong directions. things used to be smooth, now it's just one hell of a bumpy ride for me. i am trying to hard to ride it out, but it gets harder every day i swear. i know my last post was just as down.. but it hasn't gotten any better..

i cannot put on a "happy" face. i did when i was younger, i learned how to laugh things off and go about my business and just suffer later. now, i'm sick and tired.. of being sick and tired. i know i'm going to blow up here sooner or later, and it's going to be very very messy for those involved.

people = shit. not all, but a lot at this point. the one's that call themselves friends.. bullshit..

angela. if you read this, i hope you're doing well, i've been thinking about you lately. send me a message on myspace, let me know.		  
     

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09:44pm 27/03/2007
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12:13am 26/09/2006
 

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06:27pm 25/09/2006
 
mood: thoughtful
music: jakalope - pretty life
where to even begin.. i'm skipping class right now. i really have nothing to be doing other then packing up things, but the fact that i can just relax and save some bit of sanity right now is beautiful. we weren't doing anything productive tonight anyways, at least by my calculations.
things have been... so so lately? we are packing up and moving to a new apartment in less then two weeks. i've been here in virginia for exactly a year. tommy moved down with me in mid december, and has been here since. in march he had joined the coast guard and was gone to boot camp for 8 weeks. id have to say that was something that i would have never seen coming. hes just reserves, but its still insane. he then had his second training here in yorktown, so he was able to live with me and not have to stay on base. i'm still mad at him for not hanging out with the guys that he did training with cause.. wow... yep, some hot stuff there in the coast guard :)

i finally started school again this fall. i've been off a year officially. i feel like such a bum for that. its kind of wrenching seeing people that i graduated with or started college with getting their degrees and off doing things. i just have to remind myself that i chose an off beaten path.. about 3 of them now. before i beat myself up with the choices that i made, but its finally been somewhat rewarding. the people that i have met on my journies, i wouldnt change for the world.
im so excited that jerry has moved down from pa to be our new manager. when i first met him up in hagerstown we were off laughing together and norm kept trying to keep us from each other because he thought we were scarey together. we became good friends, hell he kept me sane when tommy was gone for those 8 weeks. even talking to me while i was stuck in the atlanta airport waiting on a flight. its just fun having him around now. its bittersweet having sam gone though. he was the person that brought me down this way. i could never thank him enough for everything that he did for me while he was here. he let me into his family the second that i got here. they were all great, and i miss them all terribly. i should get used to this though.. i plan on moving many more times after this.
tommy had made a comment that his sister wanted to come down here and go to college. she has two years until she would begin, and i would love for her to do that. but in two years ill be done, well hopefully, and then its off to a new place. to where.. i have no clue...		  
     

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the lj.   
01:00am 18/06/2006
  lj is picking up here. i miss this old thing. it was way cooler back in the day, before myspace took us all over. hi to all who remember me :) hope everyone is doing swell.  
     

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11:24pm 17/11/2004
  November 17, 2004
By Jonathan Cainer

Why are you doing what you are doing? Who are you really doing it for? Sometimes, we get so lost in our duties that we forget where they end and we begin. Sometimes, too, we are led down the same path by devotion. We act out of love, not out of guilt, but it amounts to much the same thing. We become unable to see where our own best interests lie. You are contemplating a generous gesture. Nothing wrong with this. But you must understand that it isn't strictly necessary. Act only if you feel inspired to.		  
     

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11:25pm 16/11/2004
  nine inch nails are amazing. i'm sure i've mentioned that before, but they really are.  
     

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10:22am 02/07/2004
 
mood: hungry
music: johnny cash - when the man comes around
I have today off.. and tomorrow.. and sunday.. I'm so happy! A lot of misc things to do today though, turn in cans, get a new dresser, well take the one from tommys to my house, go to Jasons so Tommy can jam with him and Josh. I miss Jason and Josh. Makes me miss the old days with them, we were 3 of a kind. The night before I moved to MI I was almost in tears leaving those 2 behind me. josh's girlfriend says that he's not allowed to come tonight though. he's not allowed to hang out with other girls. i forgot that we were still in middle school. maybe i should tell her what he tried to pull with me with his last girlfriend.

JILL AND ELYSE. THE LOVES OF MY LIFE THAT I MISS MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD. i'll call jillzers today, tell her to let me sleep in that papazon (sp?) chair again.

i ordered a new computer. yay. bought a laptop. it needs to hurry up and get here though. Tommys mom came downstairs a while ago, Dad kept frikkin calling the house while i was in the bed, she was tanning. They want us all to go to Cincy again this weekend. I so don't feel like driving another 4 hours. I want to stop at RBK and see my homies in Jeffersonville, but I don't want to go down there and waste most of my weekend sitting there staring at the disgusting Ohio River. SeaDoos are fun, but they can only entertain you for so long you know?

still busy all the time. til today. but still have bunches of shit to do. right now i need to go work on my complexion. haha.		  
     

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09:32am 10/06/2004
 
burnedcold's LJ stalker is system_86!
system_86 is stalking you because another friend of yours told them you liked them. They are also in jail for murder!


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09:49pm 13/04/2004
  "I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything."  
     

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04:11pm 16/03/2004
  okay.. i just got a letter from the university saying that i am an undecided student and that i need to claim a major.. what the fuck.. last time i said, hey i need to claim a major here at this school, i claimed one at gv but not here. "oh, you don't need to do that.." right.. so obviously i did.. fucking idiots that call themselves advisors.. i'm going to just flip out on those people one day..

weather here sucks balls. they just closed the mall early, at 330, so i got to come home a few hours early. yay.		  
     

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09:33pm 27/12/2003
  what program does everyone use for icons?  
     

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10:57am 21/11/2003
 
mood: cranky
music: mudvayne - world so cold.
bored. tired.

i did your work again, how's that feel? thought so.

i want to break her face for betraying me like she did. i never new that my emails were a community posting. i hate being betrayed. being lied to. being denied the truth and being used like that. it hurts and makes me only hostile in the future.

i'm exhausted. completely worn out actually. i want to just sleep all god damn afternoon but that's not going to happen. i need to study here sometime as well. lots of parts of the brain, all the muslces to learn. uh, use the bowflex. fake bake. sleeeeeeeeeep.

"when passions lost, and all the trust is gone. way too far, for way too long.

don't give a shit about anything..... i'm turning away... "		  
     

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11:26am 15/11/2003
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their luver can see.
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AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egotistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered . Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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08:33pm 07/11/2003
 
Advanced Big Five Personality Test Results
Sociability |||||||||| 38%
Gregariousness |||||||||||| 42%
Assertiveness |||||||||||| 50%
Activity Level |||||||||||||||| 70%
Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||| 42%
Cheerfulness |||||||||||||||| 62%
Extroversion |||||||||||| 50%
Trust |||||||||| 34%
Morality |||||||||||||| 54%
Altruism |||||||||||||| 58%
Cooperation |||||||||||||||| 66%
Modesty |||||||||||||||| 66%
Sympathy |||||||||||||||| 62%
Friendliness |||||||||||||| 56%
Self-Efficacy |||||| 30%
Neatness |||||||||||||| 54%
Dutifulness |||||||||||||| 54%
Achievement |||||||||||||||| 66%
Self-Discipline |||||||||||| 46%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 42%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 48%
Anxiety |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Anger |||||||||||||||| 66%
Depression |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Self-Consciousness |||||||||||||| 54%
Immoderation |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Vulnerability |||||||||||||||| 66%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||| 69%
Imagination |||||||||||||||| 70%
Artistic Interests |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Emotionality |||||||||||||| 58%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 66%
Intellect |||||||||||| 46%
Liberalism |||||||||||||| 54%
Intellectualness |||||||||||||||| 61%
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08:23pm 07/11/2003
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07:40pm 30/10/2003
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stole from kt.   
10:44pm 29/10/2003
 
mood: sad
music: linkin park - high voltage. old sheet.
[firsts]
First best friend: ashley
First real memory of something: riding bikes with my brother and his friend trying so desperately to keep up with them.
First date: uhm. no clue. never really went on a "date"
First real kiss: chris wiley. haha.
First job: ra mills. airplanes =)
First screen name: sugar8045
First self purchased album: TLC - Oooooh on the TLC Tip
First funeral: my grandpa. dads side.
First pets: irish setter, Leia.
First piercing/tattoo: ears pierced when i was about 6
First credit card: couple years ago.
First true love: tommy. because it's true.
First enemy: rebecca.
First big trip: south carolina back in the day, to see my cousins when they lived in greenville then off to hilton head
First play/musical/performance: best was phantom of the opera at pantages in toronto
First musician you remember hearing: bee gees. my mom loves them a bit too much.

[lasts]
last cigarette: way way back in they day. 3 years? 4 years?
Last big car ride: today. felt like we were in there forever just driving around getting things
Last kiss: sometime today.
Last good cry: yesterday. it wasn't good though.
Last library book checked out: dinosaurs.
Last movie seen: a man apart
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: mint chocolate chip ice cream
Last crush: the one i always have.
Last phone call: JILLZERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Last tv show watched: show? oh, Sharon yesterday while i was on my break at work.
Last shoes worn: reeboks. go figure. i work there.
Last song played: linkin park - high voltage
Last item bought: ill nino - confessions & a cat toy for my kitties.
Last annoyance: contacts burning my eyes
Last disappointment: myself.
Last soda drank: rootbeer i think, about 2 weeks ago? just a sip though. i don't like soda very much.
Last ice cream eaten: mint chocolate chip ice cream. healthy choice. woo.
Last time wanting to die: ack.
last time scolded: hmm.
last shirt worn: grey tank top now. but before that a dorky eagles shirt.
last website visited: friends page.		  
     

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06:59am 28/10/2003
 
My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
BurnedCold goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as French Whore.
angelinas427 gives you 4 pink grape-flavoured gummy fruits.
at_zero tricks you! You get a pen cap.
brillie gives you 12 blue grape-flavoured gummy fruits.
chimaira gives you 1 red peach-flavoured pieces of taffy.
coldreplicant gives you 9 tan blueberry-flavoured nuggets.
desolationangel gives you 8 green spearmint-flavoured gummy fruits.
eyeore gives you 19 teal lime-flavoured miniature candy bars.
fearthemangina tricks you! You get a broken toy car.
gvlakerboi tricks you! You get a used tissue.
hardfuckingcore gives you 13 dark blue orange-flavoured gummies.
BurnedCold ends up with 66 pieces of candy, a pen cap, a broken toy car, and a used tissue.
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08:11pm 21/10/2003
  i just went to anatomy. shoulda just fucking stayed at home. that class is a fucking joke and ego trip to our teacher. he seemed alrite at first, tell exam days, he becomes a fucking prick that enjoys the fact that we have no idea what we're doing! fucker.  
     

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